i want to get a reimbursement. i want to be like another person. i’m not happy with all the things i’ve got. i’d trade it all in for another lot. i’ve lost all the good things i ever had. and all the stuff i’ve kept has gone bad. waiting for the next words to come. reading the lines that are already done. praying for a breeze to bring you home. thinking of someone who should have phoned. looks like you’ll need some new friends after all. it’s time to make the call. someone who cares about you. who’s seen you walking on walls. not wondering when you’ll get your break. or how much more you can take. thinking about things that you’ve already done. waiting for the next words to come.  shitfaced at the waldorf. those were our salad days. too much money and too much fun. too easily led astray. so simple to get started. those were our wicked ways. rat-arsed at the ritz. and it wasn’t even passed midday. didn’t care who saw us. or what they had to say. speaking in big voices. running out of choices. but no-one else was enjoying the show. and they knew we were faking. laughing so loud. so scared of what the silence was taking. i easily fit in because i act so straight. and even though i’d like to. i don’t get up late. i want to be complex in a troubled kind of way. but i've got nothing to say. i'd like to be uninhibited. like to be free. but that open kind of person really isn’t me. i try to be outspoken. but i just can’t keep it going and by the end of day. all i know for sure. in a messed up world it’s the neat ones you should look out for. and mothers usually like me but their daughters stay away. they’ll take me home for dinner. but they never let me play. and i'm always left swimming to the shore. in a messed up world it’s the neat ones you should look out for. i used to be so cynical. so detached and clinical. i had a plan. now i’m a different man. everything was too easy. never queasy. i was on dry land. now i’m a different man. didn’t think too much about it. i never doubted. then it hit the fan. now i’m a different man.